People always get on me for not being loud, crazy, and generally outgoing. Tbh I used to be that way all throughout elementary school and a few months into middle school. My 6th grade year was the worst for me, I lost all of my friends and got made fun of constantly. That’s the year I started harming myself, and that’s the year I started thinking suicidal thoughts. I didn’t talk to anybody throughout most of middle school. I’m quiet because of that. I’m scared to open my mouth. I hate giving my opinion cause I know I’ll probably get bitched at for it. I’m scared to come out of the shell that’s formed around me over the years. I’m very slowly getting there. But who knows how long it’ll take for the old me to come out. If i’m outgoing around you, its probably because I trust you. I just hope people understand? Idk sorry for taking up your dash with a stupid post.

yunghomo:

internet crushes are the worst i wanna die